The Blog of James Jay

hmmm i started a post earlier today i guess it didnt save it. well tommorow im out of this place on my way home from this place, it kinda sucks our flight leaves at 8 in the morning from here in tampa, then we head to Minneapolis for a 4 hour layover, then into phoenix.

im ready to be home with my family.

this place is pretty but it doesnt really feel good without my family. i miss them to much. i honestly really didnt do much, mostly went out and ate alot im tired of eating big meals really just want some food from home. 

i got to se some cool stuff, the other day honestly i cant even remember what day it was i found out that they had a Dali museum here. i was truly excited i spent 25 bucks to get there. hung out for a couple of hours saw some amazing paintings as well as his films. it really was a treat for me. and the best thing about this trip. i also went walking trying to shoot some film but man there was no one on the streets, and mostly homeless. i honestly don’t know how much i walked. i know i started at about 1st street and ended up on 22nd street, that doesn’t include the up and don’t walking the avenues. i was pretty tired after that trip.  

but alot of the time we are driving somewhere. some of the girls i work with really dont like walking much. the first night me and my coworker wanted to walk since we had spent all day inside a plane. walked about 3 or 4 miles. not to bad. the weather was awesome. 

breezy with a chill from the ocean.

but its been alot of the same thing work until about 4 then go out and eat and then bed.

i finally made it out to the beach as the sun was setting such a beautiful thing to see. i wished talia and chloe were with me at that moment. i also finished a black and white roll at that time and then loked in my shirt pocket and saw i mistakenly grabbed a roll of color film. i shot the whole roll…

but thats most of the stuff i did while here. i did learn a thing or 2. im hoping it will get me back into the rotation of things back at work. 

well ill be back tommorow. 

its 9:26 here and i need to pack and get ready for home. 

i tell you though the 3 hour difference kills me. 

i hate jet lag. kills me every time. 

thats where im typing this message from…well actually its my room overlooking the beach. i know what am i doing here in tampa typing a blog when i could be out there. i honestly dont know, might be cause im home sick and would rather be at home sitting on the couch. that might be it. 

when your gone from your loved ones you realize how much you just want to be with them, how much i want to be with my wife and daughter. 

i miss them. 

yes this is a beach and yes its nice but i really need a vacation from work. 

this place seems so far away from home. i just feel like i really just want to go back and be there. i didnt think it would get to be but i guess it is. i know it has already gotten to talia. but i guess i really just dont want to be here right now. 

look at that view

man im really a lame person aint i…

alright maybe ill go sit outside for awhile. 

it would be cool if they had a bike rental place here, so you could just go and ride wherever. 

i think me and the kid kicked the flu…

she is happy and so am i, i still feel a tiny bit of it so i am home again today. just wanted to make sure it is gone before i head back to work dont want to spread it there. maybe ill be ready for this trip this weekend. 

 man im glad we were able to beat this thing. i hate being sick at this time of year. ill report any more updates. 

hope you all are well. 

my new bike. 

well about a week ago i bought a bike of craigslist. its a raleigh 3 speed, i think it might be from the 80’s or something.  its a really nice bike, it has alot of grime and needs a good cleaning. also needs new tires as they are rotted and maybe some new rims.  im excited to get it running, ill be using it mostly for riding to work.  it is way lighter than my paul frank bike. i wont be doing as much work going to work. 

so i went and bought it for $25 bucks not to bad i think. though i really felt bad for buying it. i was told by the previous owners grandson that he hurt himself he broke a hip, and shattered his ankle and would not be able to ride a bike again. i felt really bad for him. i also told him it was going to a good home and it would be put to good use.  i hope he passed that on to him.

but i must say i like it.

yep i started down that road of sickness last night well actually yesterday afternoon. i don’t know if it was something i ate or did i get the bug that chloe had. all i know is i felt awful. all i had for lunch was some sprite and a bean and cheese burrito. well when i got home i felt awful my body was aching i had the cold sweats and couldnt get warm and my stomach felt like i had been punched, just your average symptoms of the flu rearing its ugly head. so me feeling like the only thing i could do to help myself was make myself throw up…

i know that sounds awful, but sometimes it needs to be done. 

i actually felt a whole lot better after that. 

so i wake up this morning and i still am a little hot, i had a head ache, but i feel fine. ate some toast drank some apple juice to keep myself hydrated. 

who knows i might beat this thing.

this week was such a blur. i’m typing this out at 2:30 am and really should be asleep with my girls but no im here typing not because i really want to sit here, but im waiting for the wash and i really cant do anything about that. 

well i dont even know where to begin honestly this week has just been hell. i have been working late for the last couple of nights sometimes to about 9 in the evening, other times i have been going in early. we have a event in the morning at 7:00 am. thats why i should be sleeping. but for some odd reason i fell asleep on the couch. so i awoke at about 2:00 am to throw clothes in because i really have not washed this whole week. work has been one thing, i was prepared for that. i set myself up mentally for these grueling couple of weeks, remember i worked last weekend too? and next week ill be on a trip. so yeah at work we are a bit busy right now. we also have to start piecing our quaterly report together, we are supposed to have a draft monday, i think we will have it ready sometime this week… (side note: chad i didn’t have my pictures either).

well the other night chloe woke up crying at about 4:00 am in the morning and we awoke just as she threw up all over her crib, we jumped up and started to clean her up thinking maybe she ate to much for dinner or something. honestly i don’t even know what day this happened, thats how crazy things have been. well back to chloe, well we change her and clean her up and then lay her down with us, well a couple of minutes later the same thing, only all over our bed. talia had to sleep with her sitting up on the couch. she tells me to go back to bed since i have work in the morning i lay down for a hour and im up at 6 getting ready for work.

  well as the morning progressed it got worse and worse. chloe would not keep anything down, and her throwup got to the point where she had nothing in her stomach and it started to turn yellow then to bile green. she starting to turn weak and was starting to get a fever so by noon that morning we took her to sacaton hospital waited for like 3 hours then they said just to watch her and try to keep her hydrated. apparently from other parents that have done this whole parenting thing before said this is common among hospitals you wait a couple of hours then you see a doctor for 5 minutes and then go home. 

well that night the same thing, we were able to get chloe to eat some rice cereal and maybe a tiny bit of milk and some water. well it starts up again the next day im at work and talia is telling me this over the phone, she tells me she is taking her to the emergency room here in chandler.  (side note you know i honestly don’t know how talia does it sometimes, she takes care of this child and then even takes care of me its unbelievable.)

well my wash is in the dryer, and im tired so ill finish this tomorrow after work… till then. 

so its now sunday 12:35 PM and I’m back writing this thing.

well work was to be expected tiring and busy. it was a cool day actually, not to hot. i did spend some time there afterwards to take some photos. i think i got some good stuff hopefully. i shot some color to see if my camera is still working ok, it fell out of my bag thursday night.  well thursday chloe got sicker and talia had to take her once again to the emergency room, instead she took her her to chandler. they hooked her to a IV and took a blood sample to figure out what she had. apparently they said that she had a stomach flu. then they transfered her to mercy gilbert hospital as they didn’t have a pediactirc center like mercy did. she spent the night there, she got some sleep not much but she was a little better me and talia got some sleep too. she was able to come home the next day, talia spent the day with her and i went to work. when i came home she seemed fine and was being her old self. i went to work the next morning and talia said she had started to get diarrhea, and last night after work i came home and chloe was playing and she threw up again this morning she was able to keep some milk in her tummy, i just hope she gets better. i feel so bad for her right now. ill be updating this hopefully she gets better soon. 

so like i said this weekend it was crazy worked saturday, went to a kids birthday sunday, i honestly believe that children parties are the hardest events sometimes… well kaydence turned 4 and we celebrated at peter piper pizza it was fun as always. 

these are from that day i shot expired ferrinia solaris 400 film… for some odd reason it worked… im tempted to get prints to see what they look like it seems the index print looked way nice… and the saturated colors looked cool… alot of flare from the scan…

take a look…

kaydence playing with her balloons… funny what balloons can do to children. 

reese this kid is one goofy kid. i love his shirt. 

this is nick and jaime, and there daughter rylee. such a cutie that baby girl…

she even has her little ears pierced. 

more rylee…

here is nick being nick. somethings dont change. 

and now being a dad… i think its funny if you asked us maybe 8 years ago we would be hanging out together celebrating one of our daughters birthdays we would have laughed… funny how things like that work out. 

getting ready to blow out the candles.

and there it is. 

time for presents. her and my brother. 

mother and father in background trying to sort out the presents. 

while she goes digging for more. 

grandma i wonder what she was thinking about… she was just thinking…

my sister and our great mother… she is in her 80s right now. and still able to do things that most 80 year old people cant do. 

ok now for some cake this little girl was out playing games and then sat down for 3 whole minutes to have some cake and ice cream, this little girl has such a sweet tooth. 

 and ill leave you with this one. i love this one… it makes me laugh. 

hope you enjoyed these shots it was fun shooting it…

sooner or later ill have some black and white…

i miss seeing black and white here. i hope this post finds you well and waiting for the weekend…

on another note i bought a used bike of craigslist for 25 bucks. a raleigh 3 speed bike. needs new tires but looks really nice needs a clean but it looks awesome. 

pics to come. 

9:45am on a Monday, after a crazy filled weekend, still haven’t had coffee

And I’m sitting here looking at the TED website, hearing a speech by Stephen
hawking on the universe, and then switching to another video questioning the
existence of god.

I don’t advise anyone to try this

It’s like having your brain squeezed in a vice while having your toe smashed
by a hammer

sometimes its to early to be smart… though the TED website is awesome check it out…

man im tired this morning… i dont even know what i did this weekend honstly all i have known is being out the door and sleep… i was actually able to go get a cup of coffee this morning, but no bike ride. 

and last night i was able to go play records with stuart for a couple of hours… but other than that its just been running around. 

yesterday i worked, today is a birthday party for my niece… next weekend rinse and repeat… then the week after that ill be in florida for training… then we get ready for Chloe’s party. 

i miss the times of riding my bike on the weekend… such a simple pleaser i take for granted.

on another subject i have had this topic in my head and really didn’t want to write about it until i accomplished it, but honestly it has been bugging me for some time.

you see before my father died i gave him a book that i really thought he would appreciate, he was a mad person when it came to reading, he would read for information and then read for pleasure. but i wanted to get him something because he was going through rehab at the time and i thought this book would be a help to him in recovering. i gave him this book called the ghost rider about this gentleman named neil peart, he is the drummer for me and my dads favorite band named rush. neil lost his daughter in a car accident on her way back to college then a year later lost his wife to cancer, so him lost and  feeling as he had no hope he decides to go and travel canada, the united states, and south america on his motorcycle. well my father loved the book and we would talk about it when we would see each other. 

well when he passed away i only took a couple of things of his i took his cds, his wallet, and 2 tshirts, and this book. and when i looked inside i found a bookmark where he left off. when i found that i cried it was just so much. mostly because he was such a fast reader,  but for some odd reason i think he was taking his time with this book, and i honestly don’t think he was reading anything else at the time. i think he was concentrating on this one book feeling almost the same things in the book, yes in a different way, but feeling the pain and loneliness, and then trying to feel as life can go on,  that there is a way out of this deep dark hole. i know he felt some connection to neil in the book, i think it had to do with neils lyrics in his music and then to see this side of him he understood the pain that he felt, and i think my father saw that in his own life. i dont know its kinda hard to explain. i guess to me it just feels like a unfinished job. something he started and didn’t finish. 

so fast forward to me and I’m reading the book. i have spent so much time reading this thing starting and stopping. then starting again. well I’m almost to that point in the book where I’m going to hit the bookmark and i honestly don’t know what to feel or what to think. its weird… part of me honestly feels robbed and almost not wanting to do it. but i feel like i need to finish it, to get it over with. i keep looking at the point in the book counting the pages and looking at the point where the paragraph ends and knowing i would have stopped there too. i don’t know. but maybe I’m thinking to far into it. i guess all i can do is get to it read it and see what happens. 

talia made some potatoe soup for dinner… and now i dont feel good. it seems i ate to much for dinner i should have stopped but continued with a second bowl…

now i feel full…

thats my problem when it comes to something that tastes good i eat to much of it…

side note: don’t eat to much of talia’s potato soup it will mess you up…

but man its good. 

i also saw this today while cruising around and i love love these posters…

i hope i win some. anything my michael c. place is just awesome.

notforcommercialuse

he is one of the people i look up too when it comes to design. 

i dont think i will ever be near his level but one can only hope. right? you have to love the simplicity of his work. it sucks you in. minimalistic design.  

well its time for bed 2 more days and finally a day off… then we have kaydees bday party, she is turning 4. i need to take some photos… i posted last years in my old blog i should post those again… and then the new ones. though i have to hunt for negs… but im looking forward to seeing this little girl. 

see you all sometime this weekend.